And So She Waited
Shakuita Johnson
This is not a story about love, but a story about how love can consume you. Heart, body, and soul. A story of loving someone so much that the love you feel harms you.
Have you ever loved someone so much, that before you realized it, they owned half of your soul?
Raven Sinclair’s first love had always been ballet until she met Remy Peters. She fell hard and she fell fast and never looked back. He was everything she always believed she wanted but he had other plans.
Remy Peters didn’t believe in love and he wasn’t looking for it. He just wanted to have a good time in between classes and swim team. He’s been seeing Raven for over a year and a half and he’s not sure how it’s lasted this long. It’s not like he’s made any commitments but when he stumbles on the prettiest girl he’s ever seen, he knows it’s time to let Raven go.
Matthew Masterson has loved Raven since he first saw her in ballet class when they were five. They have been best friends ever since and he’s not content to stay there. He sees Remy for who he really is and wastes no time in telling Raven every chance he gets but is Raven his happy ever after or does fate have other plans?
Love, lies, and obsession…three lives bound by twisted desires for what they can’t have.
**Mature audiences only 18+…contains darker elements and no HEAs**
"What's wrong with you?" Raven whispered.
"You! You're what's wrong with me! Can't you see what you mean to me? It's me you should be with. It's me who loves you. Remy loves no one but himself. He was all over Casey Summers last night and they went home together. Plus, everyone knows he's been trying to take the new Photography major transfer student home. What's her name, Stacey Nickels? It seems everyone but you sees Remy for what he truly is! A grade-A fucking asshole!"
"You're just jealous. You don't want me to be happy,” Raven sobbed. “You’ve had it out for Remy since the first time I introduced you. How can you call yourself my best friend? It's like I don't even know you anymore."
"Jealous! Jealous! I can’t— You think— What in the hell's happened to you? Are you really that naïve and gullible? Do you really think that you and Remy are going to get married and live happily-ever-after? It's been a year and a half, Raven. How many times has he taken you out where people could see you together? How many of his friends have you met? His parents? I'll tell you how many: none. Zero. He doesn't care about you. He got exactly what he wanted from you. SEX! That's all you ever were to him and all you will ever be. Honestly, I'm not sure why he hasn't dumped you yet!"
"He loves me, that's why,” Raven said under her breath. “He's going to meet me for lunch and we are going to discuss where our relationship is going." Her eyes were now brimming with unshed tears. "I told him I loved him."
"And did he say it back? No. He barely responds to your texts and you think after dropping the ‘L’ word that things will magically turn around? He's going to stop seeing other girls? Raven, sweetie, please wake up and see what's right in front of you. I don't want to see you hurt any more than you already are," Matt pleaded.
Raven let out a wicked laugh. "Oh, you don't want to see me hurt but you have no problem causing me pain? Fuck you, Matt. I don't need this from you. Remy loves me and if you won't support my relationship, then there's nothing left for us to say to each other."
Often there is quite
a time lapse between reading a synopsis for a book that I'd like to
review and actually reading the said book. So when I began “And
So She Waited,” I jumped in blind. After a couple of pages my
initial thought was... what am I reading?
There was nothing
instantly likable about Raven, Remy and Matt. They all oozed
“attitude and aggression” and at times act and speak in a manner
more akin to immature adolescents that young adults. In theory,
these three talented and privileged people should have the world at
their feet-everything to gain, nothing to loose. However, the author
shows us an example of why these young people act and behave like
they do; how our upbringing shapes us into being the people we are in
both a positive and negative way. We learn that one young woman is
struggling to cope with the world that surrounds her, creating a
domino effect which results in this tragic story of unrequited love.
My overall feeling
is that I appreciate what the author is trying to achieve with Raven,
Remy and Matt. Their characters need to be further developed to
really fully understand the reasons behind their motivations, along
with those in the supporting roles. There are too many unknown
factors right now, especially with Remy and Matt.
The twist towards
the end it is incredibly sad, however I applaud the fact that the
author doesn't give a defined ending. It is very thought provoking,
leaving us the readers to think and decide what may or may not have
happened next. This is going to stay with me for a while...
***arc received in
exchange for an honest review***
Shakuita Johnson is a 29-year-old Psychology major. When she isn't going to school or working, she is doing what she loves most. Writing. She started writing in middle school. Starting with poetry. Then short stories in a creative writing course her senior year. Her love for paranormal and supernatural started with R.L. Stine Goosebumps books and TV shows, Anne Rice Vampire Chronicles, and Christopher Pike books. She is an avid reader with over 100 books on her bookshelf and 1000 plus on her iPad. Visit her online and read her poems and one attempt at songwriting on her blog at http://www.dark-indiscretions.com.
You can also find her atwww.facebook.com/shakuitajohnson.
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